Its feels as if everything is going wrong for me.

First the nonsense with me and ashely, for those of you who dont know, me and my fiance broke up after he got agressive and hit me.

Now it just feels as if my parents are pushing me away, they are fighting amongst each other not to have me in their house. What they dont understand is that i might be living on my own and working with a child of my own, but sometimes i feel like a little girl who still wants to be loved and cared for by my mommy and daddy. My mom remarried and my dad has been living with another woman for nearly 9 years, and it feels as if their new families are more important than me.

But ive still got the best thing that ever happened to me, my beautiful angel child, he is all that keeps me going.

Thanks for ur support Angie, really helps alot!!!!!

This post is for a very special person whom i have come a long way with.

Vincent

I would just like to tell u how i feel. I cant describe how glad i am that u are back, i am so happy that u are back in our son's life. I want you to know that i never meant to break your heart, i quess everything happens for a reason. Sometimes i miss u so so badly.
You have made me very proud and i am really proud to call you our child's father.

I am going through a very rough time at the moment, and i am glad to know that you are here, i know that i can count on you and your mom.

Sorry for all the fighting and moaning, but you are back and that is all that matters now.

I know there are a lot of my friends (not registered on blogstream) reading my blog that wont be happy about what i have said in this post, but ive got a message for you guys 2. I am going to be who i really am from now on, and thats the way i want to be. So if you dont like the real me and the fact that vj is back in my and our child's life then you guys arent really friends. Im sick of pretending to be someone im not, just to keep everyone else happy. This is a brand new start for me, and i am proud of what i have accomplished.
Sorry to all the friends im going to lose, this is just something i had to do, sorry if i dissapointed you guys, but this is just the way it is going to be.

Vincent i have done this for you, i want everyone to know that i am proud to call you my child's father, and who ever doesnt like it, its their problem. Like you always used to say "F.... the people, we are the people"

I will always have a special place in my heart for you, and that is why i am letting the world know that i dont give a damn who doesnt like you!!!

See you soon!!

Lots of love

Roxy