This morning he had a discussion about LOVE at work, and i cant believe that there actually is people who believe in love. I do believe in love but only to a certain extent. I dont believe in depending on someone else, and in my eyes there is no such thing as true love or love lasts forever. Maybe its just because i never had a reason to believe in it.....

There is nothing better than a mothers love for her child!!!

A very happy new year to all my online friends.

So much has happened in the last month that i dont know where to start.

Well i started working at a new company, i got promoted to the admin manager.hhhheeeeehhhhheeee

Dylan is walking strong now and he is growing so so quickly, its amazing how the time flies.

I decided to give Ashely another chance, there is alot of people who arent very happy about this, but unfortunetly its my life where i make my own decisions. I believe every single person deserves a second chance and i cant always live to keep the rest of the world happy when im unhappy. He promised to change and so far so good, he signed a contract with a corporate design firm and is earning a decent salary. Im really proud about him!!!!

I had made a change in my life to, i made a promise to myself that i will be stronger. I decided to stop worrying about other people, being a young mom isnt always easy and dylan needs my full attention when im with him as i also work full day. I just need to be harder, i always let the same people make me feel as if i owe them something and that i have to do as they say. This has come to an end now.

Anyways, i hope all is well!!!!
All the best for the new year!!!

Its feels as if everything is going wrong for me.

First the nonsense with me and ashely, for those of you who dont know, me and my fiance broke up after he got agressive and hit me.

Now it just feels as if my parents are pushing me away, they are fighting amongst each other not to have me in their house. What they dont understand is that i might be living on my own and working with a child of my own, but sometimes i feel like a little girl who still wants to be loved and cared for by my mommy and daddy. My mom remarried and my dad has been living with another woman for nearly 9 years, and it feels as if their new families are more important than me.

But ive still got the best thing that ever happened to me, my beautiful angel child, he is all that keeps me going.

Thanks for ur support Angie, really helps alot!!!!!

This post is for a very special person whom i have come a long way with.

Vincent

I would just like to tell u how i feel. I cant describe how glad i am that u are back, i am so happy that u are back in our son's life. I want you to know that i never meant to break your heart, i quess everything happens for a reason. Sometimes i miss u so so badly.
You have made me very proud and i am really proud to call you our child's father.

I am going through a very rough time at the moment, and i am glad to know that you are here, i know that i can count on you and your mom.

Sorry for all the fighting and moaning, but you are back and that is all that matters now.

I know there are a lot of my friends (not registered on blogstream) reading my blog that wont be happy about what i have said in this post, but ive got a message for you guys 2. I am going to be who i really am from now on, and thats the way i want to be. So if you dont like the real me and the fact that vj is back in my and our child's life then you guys arent really friends. Im sick of pretending to be someone im not, just to keep everyone else happy. This is a brand new start for me, and i am proud of what i have accomplished.
Sorry to all the friends im going to lose, this is just something i had to do, sorry if i dissapointed you guys, but this is just the way it is going to be.

Vincent i have done this for you, i want everyone to know that i am proud to call you my child's father, and who ever doesnt like it, its their problem. Like you always used to say "F.... the people, we are the people"

I will always have a special place in my heart for you, and that is why i am letting the world know that i dont give a damn who doesnt like you!!!

See you soon!!

Lots of love

Roxy

I feel so sad today and i just dont know why, im thinking about everything and everyone and doing the whole crying thing.

Ive been thinking alot about my baby's father, i just cant understand why it is taking him so long to sort out his life or what ever he is doing. It just feels like he doesnt want to see his child.

What i really dont get is how a parent can just go away from his child for months to sort his life out, how do men think? (do they think???)

Dylan is growing up and he doesnt know his father, because his father ran away after a fight with his mother to sort his life out. Does anyone understand what is going on in this man's head???